I am so upset because my sister’s dog is sick.  His name is Rocky and he is just the sweetest most loving dog I have ever known.  I myself have never owned a dog.  When my sister was little, before I came around, my parents had a dog that bit my sister.  My parents decided it would be best to give the dog away and after that never we never had any other pets.  I always hoped when I got older I would be able to have a dog of my own; however, my husband is allergic to dogs so it looks as if I will never own a dog.  So, for me Rocky has been the closest thing I have ever had to owning a dog of my own. 

     Anyway, a week or so ago Rocky started having some spasms in his right chest.  My sister took him to the vet and he thought it might be a muscle problem or arthritis and sent him home with some pain med's.  The vet said if his condition changed to bring him back.  He seemed ok for a few days which we all thought great maybe he just needed time for the muscle to heal and he will be feeling better soon.  Well, a few days later my sister asked me if I could go let Rocky out because she was going to be late coming home from work.  The second I walked in the door I knew something was wrong.  Most of the time he jumps up and is so happy to see me and the kids but he just walked over and wagged his tail a little bit and then sat down.  I let him outside and when he came back inside he started crying.  I called my mom to ask her what to do and she said we need to take him to the vet.  We brought him to the vet and he had a fever of 103 and was just not doing well.  The vet took some blood for testing and also gave him an antibiotic just in case he had an infection causing the problem.  A day or so later Rocky’s fever was down and the blood tests came back normal but he still had twitching on the right side of his chest.  The vet pretty much said he doesn’t know what it is, but I just can’t accept that.  He is the vet.  Hasn’t he seen another dog with similar symptoms?  I just don’t see how he can’t figure this out. 

     So, today the kids and I went to visit Rocky and the spasms are still there.  He seems a little more upbeat but you can just tell something is wrong.  He isn’t happy like he used to be.  He can’t play with my daughter like he used too.  There is just something not right and I feel so helpless.  I want to help him and I want the old Rocky back.  I can’t imagine him having to live the rest of his life this way.  I can’t imagine him having to be in pain and not being the same active, happy, loving dog I know he is.  As I am typing this I am crying and I never knew I would ever feel this way.  He is my sister’s dog but he has been a huge part of my life too.  I just wish I could help him and find the answers.  It’s hard to see someone you love in pain.       

     Well, after JoeGirl left me a message to check in on me (thanks Joe!!!) and make sure I was ok I realized that I have been neglecting my blog in a bad way.  I got into blogging not so long ago and I just love it.  Before blogging, I was one of those people who had no idea what I wanted to do with my life.  I switched my major in college about 4 times before I just settled on Social Work which is a very important profession but is just not the right one for me.  I have had so many jobs, outside of being stay at home mom which I love, yet nothing seemed to stick.  I just couldn’t find my niche in life and many times I felt lost.  But then I found blogging and something just clicked.  I really felt like blogging could become not only a hobby but a job I loved.   

     I used to have such a creative side.  I would write short stories and my brain was always going.  But then life took over and some of that was lost.  Since having kids I can’t just stop what I am doing to write down thoughts that pop into my head and I can’t stay up all night writing when I know the next morning I will have to be up bright and early.  Sometimes I stop and think what the heck happened?  My brain is now molasses and doesn’t just flow freely like it used too.  It is almost as if I have to think where as before things just came to me.  Yet, this blog in many ways has become my new creative outlet.  Since I have been blogging again I find my creativity is returning slowing but surely. 

     However, as much as I would love to be able to blog everyday my new found love has to take a backseat at times.  Right now my husband has been working overtime and as much as I would love to tell him to put his work on hold I can’t because his work actually makes us money where as my blog at this point in my life is just for personal benefit.  Lately by the time I get the kids to bed, workout, take a shower, and nurse my son it is 11 and I just don’t have the energy to get a blog out. 

      I hope you all understand and I hope you continue to stick around even if my posting is erratic at times.  I really have enjoyed getting to know all of you and learning new information from your blogs.  It has been such a wonderful experience that I don’t want to lose any of you!  I will really try my best to keep up with things and drop by your blogs as often as possible.  Thanks again to all of you for sticking with me!

     I am totally in love with my new CrackBerry *cough* I mean BlackBerry!  Check out my new baby.  Isn’t she pretty!  Think of all the blogging I can do now. 

     Ok I also wanted to say sorry that I was MIA for a few days.  Chris was out of town and let me say things are pretty crazy around the house when he isn’t here.  Taking care of 2 kids by myself is much harder then when I only had 1!  Anyway, just wanted to let you all know that I didn’t fall off of the face of the earth and I should be back in action this week.  Hope you all are having a great weekend!

     I remember the first time I won something big.  I was in grade school and had entered a raffle at our ice cream social and sure enough I won the grand prize, a bike.  That is when my stroke of luck hit.  Since then it seems like I “get lucky” more times than not. 

     My most recent luck streak has been on purchases.  It first happened about a year ago when my husband and I went to buy a new TV.  We had been saving for an LCD and I searched all over for the best deal.  The TV we bought was not the most expensive but not the cheapest either.  It was in the middle and just right for us.  Needless to say when we went to pick the TV up they didn’t have the one we bought in stock, they only had the next one up.  So, we got the better TV for the same price as the one we paid for.  Score!

     The second lucky event came just last month when we went to buy our dishwasher.  While at the store we were trying to decide what color we wanted to buy.  We figured we would go with white since all of our other appliances were white and we didn’t know when we would ever get around to replacing them.  The stainless steel was nice but with a higher price tag we figured we would save the money.  So, the delivery guy shows up to install the dishwasher and we were outside having a play date with our neighbor.  When the guy goes to open the box my neighbor asks what color we bought and I said white.  Well, the guy opens the box and sure enough there was a nict new stainless steel dishwasher.  The guy looks at me and says, “Well they didn’t check close enough when they were loading.  I won’t tell if you won’t.”  As I type this I have my new stainless steel dishwasher running.

     Last but not least is the purchase I made this Saturday.  In January we moved my daughter to her big girl bed before the arrival of my son.  We had bought this pretty crappy mattress just to get us by for a while until we could afford something better.  Well, we had some extra cash so this Saturday we went ahead and bought her a new mattress.  The mattress was supposed to be in Monday but the salesperson said their trucks had been running late so it most likely wouldn’t be in till Tuesday.  We called on Tuesday and it still wasn’t there.  So, when I called today I was a little upset figuring all of this waiting was some type of bad sign, but was happy that the mattress was in finally.  My mom and I went to pick it up and the guy said, “Ok we don’t have your mattress because the guys sent the wrong one, but the one they sent is actually better are you ok with that or do you want us to get the other one?”  Let’s see get a nice pillow top one or the other middle of the road one we picked.  That’s right pillow top here we come.

     I honestly don’t know what it is about me, but clearly I have been hit with some stroke of luck that has continued to follow me for years.  I don’t know if it is Karma, positive thinking, or what but all I know is I will take it!